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Shedding and Thinning

One of the hardest things in my life has been to loose this weight and keep it off. I’ve lost 50 lbs and I’m working on the last 20 of it.  It will be a great accomplishment.  I have people tell me all the time that I’m an inspiration, but I just look at it as getting healthy so I can be around to see my grandkids.  I want to be healthy, not just weight wise, but heart, soul everything.  I tell people when they ask that it really is all about calories in vs. calories out.  Some people say, but I don’t have an hour 4-5 times a week to work out. Well, do you really want to wait until you are having cholesterol problems, heart problems etc to “have time”???  I’m glad I’m finally doing this for me. I’m not about doing this so I can get a man, heck I don’t even have time for one.  It does feel good to be healthier and I’m looking forward to more changes along the way.

Speaking of men, why do people feel like since I’m single there must be something wrong. LOL  I like being single. I can wear what I want when I want. I don’t have to cook for anyone if I don’t want to.  I don’t feel guilty about not being at home while they are at home.  I don’t have to be home at a certain time.  I know what money I make and where it goes out to.  I can put money in my savings account without having to worry about where it might go……  I get a lot more freedom by not being in a relationship.  So many times there are too many “controls” in a relationship.  I don’t think it should be that way.  If there is trust then there is no need for controls.  But we all come with our own baggage to sort through.  I’m getting through mine as the days gone on and as the song goes ” I’m getting a little bit stronger”.

Made it to 50!

I can’t believe it, but about a month or so ago, I hit the big 5-0! Yes, I lost 50 lbs.  I’m kind of at a stand still right now, but I’m hoping with upping my gym visits to 5 nights/week, hopefully that will push me over the edge. And to be honest I haven’t been watching my foot as much as I was before, so it’s partly my fault.  I’m ok with it, I knew I was doing it and I am ok with it taking longer than I want it to.

The dating while you are a single mom sucks.  I’m resigned to the fact that I will not find a quality man and I’m ok with it.  I’m doing just fine on my own, although sometimes it would be nice to have adult time and a helper.  But sometimes that can also come with headaches.  I’ve done the online dating websites and always come up snake eyes.  I don’t have friends of friends to hook me up.  Don’t want to meet someone at church because what if it doesn’t work out.  Maybe a guy at Dylan’s school.  HAHAHA  But really when I look at my life I really don’t have time to put someone in it again.  I’d just end up disappointing them with how much I couldn’t see them.