So overwhelmed with the New Year and it’s only the first month. I have so much going on I don’t know what to do.
I’m working on getting the house in garner ready to rent to a friend. Dylan is getting tested for things. Frustrated with my rental agreement and property mgmt company. Family stresses me out. I think I’ll just move away and some of these things will take care of themselves. LOL
On the plus side, I’m going to be officially legally single. Which while I didn’t want this option, I am going to embrace it so I can move on. I’ve done pretty good so far, so this is the last nail in the coffin as they say.
Dylan wants a sibling and keeps asking me for one. I think if he asks again I might have to start the birds and bees conversation so that he will know that it won’t happen for a LONG time. The dating thing is another frustration. I don’t feel my standards aren’t ENORMOUSLY high, but I’ve yet to find someone that fits even 1/2 of them. Plus do I really want to endanger Dylan’s well being and emotional development by getting involved with someone I barely even know. I’m not saying he’ll be involved from the beginning with my dating life, but eventually there will be a “meeting”. How do you trust someone with your children after you’ve been through divorce and that is so damaging by itself. I’ve kind of thought to myself, maybe no dating until Dylan is in high school, but then I don’t know either. He’ll have crazy hormones by that time and will probably rebel against me getting involved with anyone. Maybe I should do so now while he’s still open to me being with someone else. LOL I guess only time will tell.
I’m also still working out. I’m at a total loss of 21 lbs. I’m hoping to be less 30 lbs by spring/summer. Sometimes I loose without even trying so I guess that’s good. Right? I do miss the gym when I don’t go and I feel so much better after I do go.
Well, to the future we go with our minds and arms open wide.