Chef Wife Life

Aquarium and Saying Goodbye to 2011

December 28, 2011

We took a trip to the NC Aquarium at Pine Knoll Shores for the day and hand a blast.  This is just one of the many pictures we took. 🙂  G has fun entertaining D, but I think D likes to make us laugh just as much.  D’s eyes were wide open the whole time we were there and couldn’t get enough of each tank.  For me, the sea turtles and sea otters are my favs.  They are just so graceful and beautiful. I’ve always loved the ocean, not sure why, but it is one of the things I can not live without.  I’m slowly learning there may be other things I can not live without. 🙂

December 30, 2011

Tomorrow is the last day of 2011.  So much has happened this year…….so many great and wonderful things.  I’m so thankful for where I am in my life….such a short time ago, I wouldn’t have been able to say that, but I can honestly say that I’ve grown even more than I thought I ever could have through my life experiences.  Hopefully, I’m done for a bit learning the BIG stuff. lol  I’m looking forward to an exciting 2012.  I’m getting it started off right with a trip to FL with G starting Jan 2-8th 🙂

3 years ago today, you set me free

Three years ago today you said you wanted to separate and not be a family anymore.  So much has happened and I’m actually to the point now that I’m thankful for it, hence the title of this posting.  I want to say thank you for making the decision that I could not make.  Thank you for releasing me to become a better person and who I needed to be.  Thank you for letting D and I become a healthy family.  Even as tough as it is sometimes to be a single mom, I’d never go back to being with you.  I’m not bitter anymore, still angry about how everything happened and the lies that you told to cover it up.  The way you wouldn’t take responsibility for your actions and blame me for everything.  It’s quite laughable now.  I’m glad I’m older and wiser.  You have helped me see what abuse is and what I do not want in another person. I’m a giving person and not selfish, I deserve to have someone treat me the same way….with compassion and love and just generally being nice.

There was such a fine line for your moods and what set you off. I hope one day you really get the help you need.  I hope you can see yourself for what you are and not what you think you are.  I hope you can accept yourself for you who are and be honest and real with people.  Who knows what you might be in the future.  I actually do wish the best for you and no longer wish for other things.  I know I’m a better person now and I appreciate the lessons learned.

 

I’m free….to be…..to be me