Now that football season is officially over…..what will we do? HAHAHA relax and take in the time for us at home. I really need to find something else for him to be involved in. It’s really amazing how much time you have vs. how much you think you have. I mean even though we were on the go all the time and I felt like I didn’t have much time at all, I really did have time. I made time for people when I could and the house was still in good shape. 🙂
However, I find myself sad tonight. I’m not really sure why. I’m trying to figure it out. I never really feel “sad” except for all the appropriate times….death, bad news, someone getting hurt, someone sick, etc etc. But in a general sad mood no. We’ve had a great weekend. Had a visitor Saturday that came to Dylan’s game and mom was there as well. They didn’t win, but it was fun all the same. Dylan had a great, no……. awesome tackle! I didn’t get a picture of it. 🙁 But that’s ok. Then we had his awards ceremony at ci cis pizza. Then off to the Mestey’s house for a cookout/bonfire. Friday night we also had a bonfire at Mitch’s farm and I got to see all my Clayton friends. Maybe that’s the problem……I don’t feel like I fit again. I don’t see my friends in Clayton much at all anymore, I have few friends here……Dylan is moody lately and it makes me feel like a bad mom. We have similar issues, so I think we get on each others nerves sometimes, especially when we are tired. I think I’m also sad that I don’t have a “traditional” family at home…..kids, husband, wife…..and I miss it. Although it is hard and probably harder than what I have now. I miss sharing myself with someone. I feel like I’m broken and can’t fix it. I have hit a wall and can’t get over it or under it. Time for self reflection I think…….